Dreams

Remember when I said my ex and I made peace? Well, now that I think about it, it only seems like we made peace for only the two days that we talked. Plus, it's only the second week of being at college and I'm already surrounded by boy drama. Like, I love my friends very much, but boy drama in the second week of school is going overboard, won't you agree?

Thus said boy drama has made me have dreams about my ex for the past week now.

The dreams have been different every time; the first dream I had of him was about us being best friends. We were laughing, hanging out, the normal things best friends do. The second was about us getting back together; we made out for a majority of the dream and we were about to do the nasty before my alarm went off. The third dream we were at a party, and his sister's friend (the one I ranted about a while back) who's two years younger than us and him were flirting with each other, and every time she looked at me, she gave me this smug look that basically told me "you're not good enough".

Me lose out to a fucking junior in high school? Fuck. No.

I beat the living shit out of both of them in that dream.

In my opinion, I just relived my failed relationship in a few stupid dreams. It really pisses me off, and I keep waking up in a shitty mood. Like right now. I'm in a super shitty mood. I don't wanna dream about him but my subconscious says otherwise. Ugh.

Yesterday one of my best friends flat out told me that he wanted to go out with me; that we should "forget about our brother/sister relationship", that I "need someone to help me get over Riko" and that he would "treat me right". While all that is true to a certain degree, if I ever went out with him, it would feel like incest to me. Plus, he already has a girlfriend. And it'll never happen. Ever.

I would tell Riko about this, but truthfully, I don't think he'd care.

So is the peace still there? I don't know.