2012

Happy New Year's Eve, everyone. That was fast, huh?

This year was certainly a roller coaster for me. I've had my ups and downs (mostly self-inflicted downs), but hey, I made through the year.

This year, I ended a few chapters and started some new ones in the story of my sick and twisted life. On April 11th, what started as a normal conversation turned into the ending of a two-year relationship. On June 5th, I graduated high school. On July 14th, I returned to my absolute favorite place in the universe. On August 25th, I started college, and met friends that have already changed my life in the few short months that we've known each other.

I've pissed off a lot of people this year. A lot of people pissed me off, too. I've lost a lot of friends this year because of my psychotic reaction to mine and Riko's breakup, or just because we stopped talking once we got to college. Not only have I gained my fabulous college girlies, but I have also gained two friends, a gorgeous girl and her loyal Boob, that I know won't be leaving for a long time, probably never, and I love them both so fucking much.

This year I have done things that I never thought I would do in a thousand years. I learned how to make and confirm my own plans without asking for permission, I actually went shopping and picked put my own clothes with people who have opinions besides "that's too low" or "that's too tight". I went clubbing for God's sake!

So now that I'm an official adult who is capable of doing new things, I am actually going to make a resolution, and let the 1800 and counting people who bother reading this be my witnesses.

This year, I'm going to completely transform myself. I'm actually going to get my lazy ass out of bed and make myself look decent for class, and that includes a little makeup. I'm going to lose 20lbs and hopefully get rid of the proof of my months of stress and feeling-eating. I'm going to put more effort in everything I do, whether it's schoolwork or my social life.

Later tonight, before the clock strikes 12 and rings in 2013, I am going to post my final words to my ex. I know I said I would do it last as a part of the 30-day challenge, but I prefer to start my new year off on a clean slate. So next year, I will put all my focus in on finding a new boy, so I can finally get over this bullshit I keep burying myself in. I know I've said this like a million times before, but this time I'm serious.

New year, new Al.

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" - Jeremiah 29:11